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temporary highs with long way downs. 

the higher you take me the lower i fall. 

but i can't quit you. 

no, i can't quit you. 

because if i could of quit you i would of quit you by now.

Still learning

Still learning how to catch butterflies without killing them in the mere attempt. 

Still learning how to give, but not give it all. 

Still learning how to get my point across without saying too much. 

Still learning how to smell the roses while avoiding its thorns. 

Still learning how to differentiate my friends from my enemies.

Still learning how to differentiate what's real and what's not. 

Still learning the difference between love and lust. 

Still learning how to touch people without using hands. 

Still learning how to talk without using my mouth. 

Still learning how to let go of what's no good for me. 

Still learning how it is possible to miss a person who's right in front of you. 

Still learning that some fires will burn a lifetime while some will cease to exist before they even spark. 

Still learning how to accept the things I can't change. 

Still learning how to not respond to things people only say to illicit reactions. 

Still learning how to make something positive out of the negative

Still learning to learn my lessons the first time around. 

Still learning that some lessons will never be learned. 

But thankfully I'm still young, and I have time...

To learn from life, you, and all of my surroundings.

Sins and Virtues

My beautiful demise, you'd kill me just to prove that i was once alive.

You've shown me what most fail to see... there's sin in every saint and there's virtue in every evil.

So many times we are blinded by the bad in a person that we fail to see the good. 

So many times we are blinded by the good in a person that we fail to see the bad. 

You've taught me to beware of the evil saints. 

You've taught me to search for the virtues within the evil. 

So many times I'm caught slow dancing with the devil in a burning room. 

So many times I'm caught dancing with the devil knowing that his flames could burn right through...

But, perhaps if I dance with him long enough his flames won't burn the roof. 

If I dance with him long enough I will find some good. 

Either that, or he'll see the bad in me and clip my wings.

Either, or, I do not care.

1 on 1

tutor me how to not flinch every time i think of you. 

or don't, because every time i flinch i'm reminded that i'm still alive. 

better yet tutor me on how to slow down the hours that i get to spend by your side. 

and on how to speed up the seconds, hours, months, and years that we are forced to  spend apart. 

or on how to make the miles that separate us seem less infinite. 

in exchange i can tutor you how to not flinch when i throw my heart at you in hopes that you'd catch it next time.

Adventures

On the Quest for Love,

they say "follow your heart but bring your brain along",

but emotions and sense rarely ever do mix.

leave sense out of it and feel.

trust me with your pain. 

trust me with your pain,

because you won't ever get to feel the love unless you give me the option to put you through the pain. 

don't you want to feel the passion in your core?

don't you want to feel it rushing through your veins?

trust me with your pain. 

trust me with your pain.

just grab me by the hand, and let your heart lead the way...

or you can just sit back, and let me run through your brain.