C&D

write it down and erase it.  

copy, don’t paste it.  

hard to write down your emotions  

when you don’t know your emotions.  

when you’re so numb to feeling.  

write it down and don’t erase it.  

but it’s hard to publish these thoughts. 

 but this is where the art comes from. 

this is where i come from.  

some where between certainty and uncertainty.  

some where between lost and found.   

some where within the destruction .... that’s where i find myself. that’s where i create myself.   

 

dishonest honesty.

would you believe me if i told you that it’s been a while since i listened to the voices in my head.  

it’s been a while since i’ve thought out loud and acknowledged them.   

 

i know what that means but i’m not ready to take accountability and hold myself responsible. 

being honest with you because i can’t be honest with myself.  

not yet. at least not right now.  

forgive and forget

teach me how to forget, i can forgive that’s easy. 

living out the repercussions of these words. 

my words.  

 

my head is dark. my heart is heavy. 

 

teach me how to forgive, i can forget that’s easy. 

i used to be different.  

it used to be different.  

i forgot to forgive.  

i forgave to forget.  

you’re not real to me.  

let my words fuck you forever.