sinful.

suppress these feelings into non existence..... cause you don't exist to me.... nor that god that you believe in who allows for so much suffering and blood shed. 

we all come from the same place, you say.... 

and perhaps we do..... but, we are all in search of different things ...... 

my enlightment isn't written within the scriptures. and i'm reluctant to ask for forgiveness for my sins, cause i've savored them all... and if they bring me to my damnation, so be it.... i won't repent.  

there's a deeper truth to those lies that you tell me....... to those lies that you tell yourself. 

but i'm not in search of it. i'm not in search for you. and i've already found myself.