unavailable to you.

don’t call my phone.

and if you do and it goes straight to voicemail know that i’m not unavailable, just unavailable to you.  

don’t test my patience cause now a days i don’t have a lot.  

i avoid you. more than i avoid my reflection. that’s a lot to say. and i don’t say a lot these days.  

i got tired of making the same mistakes, cause they all start and end with you.  

that says more about me than it does of you.  

 

white lies.... white lies...  

brought me to my darkest days. 

but the truth set me free. 

and if curiosity killed the cat,  

just know that satisfaction brought him back.  


 

fight or flight.

quiet now, settle down. 

all the things i shouldn’t say, i say them twice. and pray they resonate.

listen.... for once.

it’s hard to love you on the days that i don’t love myself.  

it’s hard to love you when you don’t love yourself.  

it’s hard to listen to you over the voices in my head. 

have to lose you to find myself.  

speaking in past tense,  

i had to lose you to find myself.  

let me say it again, … i had to lose you to find myself.