you've been so quiet,

my brains been so loud.

i'm running low,

you've been up so high.

ive been mixing substances in search of substance.

but, they don't come close... no one comes close.

and you, you're so far away.

how do i compensate?

how do i restore the balance?

damn, i see your iMessage email alert appear on my screen.

and i flee to the bathroom.

how much longer will you be?

stop pretending you know what it's like.

stop insisting that you're no good for me.

as if you knew what is right for me.

you call.

i tell you to do right by me.

you're the only one for me.

fuck.

is this how it's going to be?

in search of one another in others for eternity.

they ain't me.

stop giving these bitches what belongs to me.

you belong to me.

stop bringing to light my mistakes.

you didn't mean to leave me out in the dark, again.

we've discussed this too many times before.

she's been too good to you, I know.

ill just come in and fuck shit up again.

you can't come out this way.

you didnt extend your visa and stayed passed your allotted time, that one time.

ill make it out to you again.

you're too prideful to ask me to, i know.

im offering to.

don't deny me. i don't do good with rejection.

make it feel like the first time again.

even if this is another last. even if it don't last.

tear me apart again.

ill pull it together again.

ok. ill see you in a week then.

well go from here.

ill see you there.

*disconnects.

we reconnect.